hullo

 

The computer system I use to do my job is down in our office {oh darn!} so I thought I would check in with a 'lil post about life. 

I have been doing really well lately, FYI. I have been a good visualizer, planner, eater, bill payer and grown up. Also, I have been telling people NO {which I've NEVER been very good at doing} and I have been telling people when I am feeling overwhelmed. Especially at work. And I am the girl who usually strives to be the #1 worker bee who can handle anything and who never has too much stuff to help someone out. And I've been telling co-workers, 'hey, I have a ton of stuff to do, can you please help me?' It's a good feeling to be good at life. 

Do you know why I think I am doing so well? My doula training. Seriously. Being in this world {the birth world} has taught me so much about life and coping and how to get the best out of your experiences with what you have. It has taught me to change positions when I am uncomfortable {literally or figuratively}, how to deal with {and respect} people who handle things differently than I would choose, to take deep breaths before I make a decision, and how to nurture and take care of others by FIRST nurturing and taking care of myself. That, my friends, is the most important lesson I have learned. 

I have been good at not feeling guilty for not calling people back, for cancelling my mom's trip to visit me because I needed some down time and for taking days for myself. My goal is to eliminate my feelings of guilt that persuade me to do things I don't want to do. Nietzsche would be SO proud.

I am a better and happier person because I am a doula. Better to myself. Better to friends, family and strangers. 

And that makes me very happy.

Our system is back up. 

That is all. 

I hope you all have a fantastic weekend. 

Be kind to yourselves. 

p.s. did you read this post from Meg Fee? It spoke to me.